Less then 2 weeks

* We leave for Haiti in less then 2 weeks.
* Elijah will start middle school in less then 2 weeks.
* Autumn is going to school in less then 2 weeks.

         I am excited and nervous for all of these.

I am not by nature a nervous person.  Pretty calm about most things.  The closer this trip to Haiti gets, the more my heart races and I get cold sweats.  I am not worried about any one thing, per se. 
I think about leaving the country.
Without our kids. 
I think about those first days of school for E and A. 
Without me. 
I think about my mom sacrificing 7 days of her busy life to be there in our place. 
I think about how much we will see, breath, speak and love of Haiti. 
I think about how much I will miss our kids.  
I think about how quickly I will be able to get a homestudy done when I get back cause I imagine I will have a sense of urgency about adoption.
Lots of thoughts floating in and out.  Not settling on any one for too long...
I cannot for one second entertain the notion that this trip is not meant to happen.  Too much has happened to make it possible.  Too much has transpired to put us in touch with amazing people in Haiti.
So, so excited...and a little nervous...