Adoption

Every day on my mind.
Two beautiful children who we so desperately love without hardly a hint of knowing who they are.
It has been over 9 months since our dossier was accepted into IBESR.  9 months of not knowing how long it would take to get the kids' dossiers done.  Not knowing when we started, that it would take this long.  We just didn't know that it "should" only take 3 months or less.  We didn't know the creche as relicensing and that was taking too long.
The most frustrating part of this entire process to date, is this.  We don't know.  We trust the people to do the things the people need to do to make this go.  We wait, patiently impatient, to hear what the next step needs to be, the next payment due, the next...but knowing we "should' have been well beyond this point months ago is hard.
Always, I think, God's timing.  We have to trust that or this becomes a struggle against institutions and organizations and a roller coaster of mind numbing emotions.  I am so thankful for the peace throughout.  It has been pervasive and constant.  God and I have daily conversations about those babies who are no longer babies who we love so much.  Protect them, prepare them, show them Your love so ours can be shown.
All that and also, this sucks.  It just does.  No one can speed it up or make it move at the speed we want.  We are trusting that we aren't ready yet and neither are they.  Something is still needed in preparation for them and for us.
We carry on...