In 9 years, I've never forgotten what today is.
Some birthdays, anniversaries, important dates sneak up on me.
This day never does.
Luke passed away 9 years ago.
Some Jan. 10ths have held lots of tears. Others a heavy heart. Some have been so busy, I don't have much time to settle in to the sadness.
I don't really know what today holds.
I miss him.
Shawn's birthday was Wed...it was a year of business and little sadness. Strange how last year I was balling like a baby all day and this year it seemed like any other day. For me it seems to depend on where I am at in my life. Like last year, my little two where in the exact same grade as Shawn and I when he died. It had been 26 years since his death and yet it was the hardest birthday for me so far. It was like I had a deep down fear that history was going to replay itself. Another unexpected moment in the world of grief. Love you, friend!
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